"The Beholder"

That's also from 12 self-portraits and creepy one. I had the period in my life when got anxious and lost control. I was just looking processes and getting reality without actions. I was the beholder. My Life was going on beside me. We should take responsibilities and control to live and express our selves.
I learned a lot from watching to processes. That was searching and study. I believe that there are gods within us and usually we hide them.
The painting "The beholder" is from my solo exhibition, that I'm recently working on. There will be self-portraits from my life stages and that's one of them. Every portrait has own story and technical difference on canvas.
concept of an exhibition is definition of metaphysical existence of human being. We live in two worlds. In inner world and out of world. The last one is where we touch, feel, taste, smell, experience things. Inner is the world of creativity and possibilities. Our thoughts are materializing, they just need time. Where we live, what technology we use, what cloths we wear, are come from someone's mind. The inner world is called in Latin and Asian 'Darkness' & 'Kala'.